there’s beauty…

…in the ruin of a life.

I’ve been ruined for a baseline life.  For making some days above average and excuses for the rest.  For never asking questions or never giving too much or never becoming unhappy or uncomfortable.

For wasting anything.  Time, love, extra bedrooms, extra seats at the dinner table, good books, my past, friendships, loving and wise advice, sunny days, grace, God-given creativity, laughter.

Will I fall away from it sometimes?  Of course.  But it’s not something I’m convicted of that I’m guiltily conforming to, it’s something I desperately want.  I want to live in that ruin and let the Spirit make it beautiful.

Don’t live as though you were dying.  Live as though you were dead.  Free.  As though you have nothing of your own and you’re spreading a culturally subversive kingdom that holds out the hope of the world.

1 Corinthians 7:29-31